I will constantly wake up in the middle of the night, feeling all lonely…and indeed… sorrow… I’d end up staring at the ceiling with thousands of words playing in my head… I could hear voices talking to me. Shouting at me. cursing me... Comforting me...for letting her go..I’ll be thinking of the past. Thinking of tomorrow. Thinking of next year. Thinking of my future No her future, her life And of course, thinking of myself . At that point of time, I feel like I can’t reach out for anyone. I feel like everyone is gone and no one is there to pull me out of this deep emptiness. I’m truly all alone, hunted by Loneliness. I hate it… but it loves me . Everybody matters me nothing but her.But in Utopia, those constant wake ups in middle of night and deep sorrow will have no place there, i wont hear any voice talking to me hard, shouting at me, cursing me... comforting me...but praise me..hail me..for having her with me,beside ...